This is march already i do not get on here much any more. we are going on the 8 month on the 23 we miss him more today  it feels sooooo long since we seen him to talk the other day Joel told me how he misses his daddy and wish he was here that  breaks my heart he is only 6 and needs a daddy .I dont know what God has in store for us but i know He doesnt leave us He has been so good to us and He sees our tears and knows our hearts. There is Power in Prayer. Rachel turn 20 in feb Jordan was10 in jan and on jan 2 was 21 annv. that was a hard day my good friend Elmina came for the day and then her husband Steve came and took me out for supper. They have been wounderful friends I thank God for them see God  does meet our needs. On friday we are going to go see Liz at bibleschool she has been gone for 3 weeks and has 3 more to go the twins are at my sisters for a week so the house seems empty but they are having fun and a time of growing uncle Wayne has a way with them. Well need to go we are babysitting today the house needs clean and bags packed i am looking forward to it its time to get out of the house . the 2 little boys are spending the weekend with Miriam Miller they just live down the road from us so they are very happy about that. take care Rebecca

I see it has been about a month since i have up dated i really dont know what to say but that we are still hurting sooooo much. my heart crys when i see my children cry for their Dad today is week 11 in two weeks it will be 3 months the day after my 42 birthday how do you enjoy your special day. Kristen is having a hard time this coming tuesday the 14 she will be 13 and David and i would had taken her out to eat i told her i still will but its not the same so please pray for her . Emilys bd is on the 29 she will be 17 so three bds this month and then Nov.11 my twin sons will be 16 and then they can start going with the youth. So life is going on and God is meeting our needs He is so good. Yersterday Emily had her tonsilles taken out she has a sore throat and is living on pain medicane which in a couple of days should get better. 4 friends from church came and sat with me thank you so much and my dear friend Elmina was one of them and Brittney Her daughter who is Emilys best friend thank you. will i need to go we have small groups here tonight and the place is a mess thank you for your prayers please keep doing so. Rebecca

Today is week 5 and of the pain is still so great the nightmare never goes away. I think of David so much and my love for him keeps growing i just wish i could hold his hand a tender kiss oh hear him say i love you.But i cant and so the tears come and i can look at his pictures and think back over our life together and that is so sweet.I thank God that he gave me David for my husband and for the 20 years that we had.A saying that i heard a long time ago it is better to have loved a little then not to have not loved at all.  Rebecca